Domain contest?!
I don’t know -what the fuck- happened, but somehow I got nominated or accidentally stuck up on the “Domain of the Month” poll on pick-me. Not that I mind, I just never thought of putting my site into one of those things because it doesn’t seem like I’d win. BUT HEY, since I’m already there, you might as well vote, right?
Emily called work yesterday, said she might be staying down Louisiana till June 8th or so, which in turn means I will continue working 6 days a week until then. This is ridiculous, I can’t run everything by myself. Especially not on $5.45 an hour. I want -time- with my 8 year old sister, I want time with -him-, I want time to go outside and roll in the dirt if I damn well feel like it.
You realize I haven’t been able to see my sister since the fairie festival on the 4th, besides a brief few minutes on Mothers Day? I mean I thought we won this whole custody battle so we could take care of my sister, and I would actually get to see her more than 3 times a year. Not that the judge has even made a final decision yet, but I think it’s safe to say that we have custody now. Well not ‘we,’ I don’t have custody, but I do take a lot of responsibility for her. And I still think I SHOULD get custody. But anyway.
A ‘friend’ of mine named Rhi came into work yesterday, one of my pagan friends, though between you and me, I don’t like her all that much. She wants me to go into business with her, opening an occult shop. Of course you know I’ve been meaning to open an occult shop for quite some time, but not with her. She has this…..petty aura about her. I definitely don’t think my sanity would last.
But also, we started onto the subject about my husband, “Ex #1″. And how I will be going through a divorce and all of that sappy jazz. My goddess did she make me feel guilty. She went on this entire spleel about how I should be thankful for finding a good person who isn’t like an ax murderer or a drug dealer and how it’s hard enough for people to pair up and just because I’m not in love with him anymore doesn’t mean I shouldn’t give him a chance, and blah blah. I was like, holy hell.
FIRST off, I got married at 18, I was PRESSURED into getting engaged at 16, I was with him for many years but I’ve come to believe that we had a highschool infatuation, and mine just went kaput. He CHEATED on me when I was 18. I’m 22 years old (As of April 13th, so you’ll remember next year), and now I have to be committed to someone who I do not and will not love, for the rest of my life? Does that not seem a little unfair? I was not bonded to this man spiritually, it was a legal marriage in a courthouse, where I wore a Pantera t-shirt and a pair of torn jeans for crying out loud. Even if I was bonded to him spiritually at the time, EVERY person changes and grows. Not every person can change and grow together.
When you change, you’re supposed to embrace it. The Native American people believe when your life goes through a significant change, that you change your name as a representation of being reborn into this new era. Some things just cannot stay the same, no matter how much they hurt you, learn from them, and move on. Embrace the good with the bad. It’s all life.
So yeah, I was pretty upset last night, but -he- made me feel a lot better. That and a few games of Starcraft.
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4 Responses to “Domain contest?!”
May 21st, 2002 at 12:53 pm
I voted! I voted!
May 21st, 2002 at 12:58 pm
It was me. I wanted to find a way to thank you for hosting me.
It wasn’t the most superb act of my gratitude, but I hope it made you smile. By the way, I voted for ya.
May 21st, 2002 at 3:46 pm
You shouldn’t be pressured into anything. Ever.
May 21st, 2002 at 7:08 pm
Aww, thanks Jenna