Just got this in the mail. Blah. Still hopeful.

Just got back from the hospital a bit ago, they’re actually not keeping my dad overnight, which is good. The pain in the ass part is it’s like an hour/hour and a half away. And we have to go back Thursday *faint*

They cleaned out his ulcer wounds (nasty) and bandaged it up tight. They said the reason they keep coming back is because of the swelling. So once they finish with the swelling, they’ll get him what is called a compression sock. Which is like some tight nylon stocking thing that will help keep the swelling down.

I’ll be really happy when these wounds go away. I just found out today that my dad has had them since about 1986, which is insane. It’s like a permanant wound.

I might have to try and take out a loan at the bank this week…because we’re really hard for money. Although apparently “Ex #1″ had a job interview today, which is good, and I’ll be calling all of these places I applied tomorrow to see what the status is on all of that.

Dad has to meet with the Social Security Disability people tomorrow. Bastards, all of them. I hope they give him disability. If they don’t, well FUCK YOU Social Security!

Please please please let me get a job.

Man, going to downtown Baltimore is a mess. Talk about ghetto. From Park Heights to Druid Hill and then the Harbor, blech. I don’t know how people live in not only crowded places like that, but in run down buildings with crime around every corner. Of course I guess they have no choice.

I haven’t been down there in many years. Probably since before I was a teenager, besides this one time I got into some trouble down there, but I’m not gonna get into that.

It’s weird how I remembered everything. Like the shapes of the buildings and turns in the road. I guess that kinda stuff just sticks in your memory.

Job interview today in two hours, wish me luck. Of course it’s when my new addiction is on: The Waltons (Shaddap).

Dad goes into the Wound Care center tomorrow. I’m a little nervous. I mean yeah, they’re only trying to tend to the ulcers in his leg, but this is in a hella bad neighborhood. I’m not sure how long he’ll be in there. I’ll be responsible for taking care of all of our animals while he’s gone.

I may file for unemployment today. I’ve been debating on it, what I really should have done was file for it when I first lost my job, but I thought it’d be easy to find another one (yeah right). But then what happens if I file, and then I get one of these other jobs. Can’t hurt anything so I might as well.

“Ex #1″ pisses me off. He’s been home for a month now, living with his mother, WHO by the way has at least 2 vehicles at her disposal. He’s spent all this time searching for a car to drive and getting it inspected. When what he SHOULD be doing is finding a job because his last paycheck from the Navy is September 1st. Not only has he not even attempted to find another job, but he went out and bought an engine winch for two engines he apparently bought in Virginia, and a new car stereo.

My god I could fucking strangle him. We do not have the money to fuck around and buy shit. And yes we do still have joint accounts so we can finish paying off our debts. Believe me it won’t be that way once I get another job. Here, my father and I are struggle just to eat, he has the audacity to come over here all the time and say shit to my dad like “Yeah we’ll help you out” and then go spend all our money on stupid shit.

Grr.

So many things to do…

Applied for 6 jobs today, and I will be applying for a 7th on Monday, plus I have a job interview Monday. Hopefully all my faxes went through, ha.

I’m not going to let this rut stop -me- dammit.

Well, I certainly hope you’re proud of yourselves. It seems the people who harassed me at my last domain, from that MUD that he and I used to play, have now found this one.

But you know what? I really don’t care anymore. I haven’t had anything to do with that place in forever, and they certainly aren’t worth my time.

With that said, come all you want, find out everything about me that you want on here. Maybe you’ll realize that Ex #4 and I are human beings -just- -like- -you-. In fact we’re better than you because we don’t get off on pretending that we run the world. Your MUD is pathetic, no matter how much you try to say otherwise. Half of your people left, and they will still leave because you treat them like animals. I wouldn’t play there if I was paid to.

We’ll always be better than you.

Alex is over again, he’s been trying to bond with my dad more, I’m not sure WHY since I told him it was over, but it’s like he’s trying to use my dad to get to me.

I tried to bore him to leave by watching soap operas but he just went outisde instead. *sigh* First thing I want to do when I get a job, is pay bills, and go ahead and serve these divorce papers because this is just ridiculous.

I think our well is drying up because of the drought. So now we have to ration water, a -lot-. I haven’t taken as many showers, I’m too afraid to do dishes, and we can’t water any flowers at all. We already buy bottled water to drink because I just like the little bottles. Hey you can blame President Bush for helping to SCREW UP the fucking environment. Woo

Jeff bought me Lord of the Rings It’s such a good movie, I’ve been watching it a lot. I saw the trailer for the second one last night on lordoftherings.net and I’m very excited about it. Jeff has corrupted me, I’m sure he feels proud.

He and I had an argument about video games yesterday, it seems to be a common argument. I don’t like seeing him waste away on video games, and he gets offended when I bring it up. But we did finally get to talk things out, but not until my friend Paul and I seriously got into it because he thought I was talking about -him- and not Jeff. So now we aren’t talking anymore. I wish friendships didn’t get ruined over a very UNNECESSARY misunderstandings.

No word on the jobs yet…..I hope I get one so I can get AWAY from Alex.

Where have I been?

Not many places, I can tell you that much. It’s about 8am, first time I’ve gotten up this early since I quit my job last month. Going job hunting today.

Dad goes into the hospital on Monday at Johns Hopkins Wound Treatment Center. Hopefully they’ll do something about these ulcers on his leg. Some of them are almost the size of my fist. Nasty. But he’s had them for years, so I guess he’s used to it.

I’m not too thrilled about doing everything around here by myself, taking care of all the animals, the gardens, but I welcome the opportunity.

We’re still not sure if he will be accepted for disability. I hope he is. I’m not going to give up on it. I don’t want my father having to go back to work and eventually losing his leg. That’s just not acceptable to me.

Besides, if I get a decent enough job, then I can take care of things.

There really hasn’t been much else going on, I’ve been depressed about being unemployed, but I’m determined to do something about it.

Ro will be leaving Tawodi. She went and bought her own domain, which I don’t have a link to yet, but I’ll post it as soon as I do. Good luck hon It was a pleasure being your hostess.

Oh and my e-mail is working now, so I got all of the e-mail I had backed up from my host switching e-mail systems.