10 month old quadruplets. That’s 4 kids, wanting to do 4 entirely different things, for many hours during the day.

Yeah I don’t think I want that job. Definitely not for $6.50 an hour. The interview went okay, it just doesn’t seem like something I want. Lets hope I get this kennel or receptionist job.

I’ve been really really into the environment lately. I didn’t used to be, I mean I would recycle, sure, but I always thought organizations like PETA and Greenpeace were like, hippie tree huggers.

Granted, I still think PETA is full of shit because of how they handle issues. They do some crazy stuff. Psycho stuff. But it HAS gotten their organization a lot of publicity.

Anyways, I’ve been looking up ways that I can help the environment online. Finding products that are safer for the environment, donating to organizations that help animals or to help save land like rainforests.

‘He’ is really supportive of it, and I’m very happy about that. But some of my other friends pretty much scoff at the idea. And it kinda upsets me. I tried sharing a link with my friends Pip and Borlak and they kept making fun of me for wanting to save the rainforests. It’s really sad. I mean why wouldn’t you want to save them? For one, once they’re gone you’re not going to get them back. Not to mention there could be cures for so many diseases in them such as AIDs or Cancer. But no, why waste the effort on trying to save our fucking planet when you can sit and home and watch TV eating your microwavable dinner. Great.

And you can sit on your lawn chair, in some suburban area, with about 10 feet worth of lawn in front of you and watch your children play with an old grubby tire. Maybe you can even eat a manufactured meal later on. And what happens if the electricity goes out? What happens when our energy runs out? What then? It’s not like we’d have any crops or animals to feed us, they’d all be gone. But who cares, right? Because you’re happy the way you are.

Ugh, it’s attitudes like that, that really make me sick. People who just don’t care about all of the abandoned animals, all of the sold off farmland to make new $200k+ houses, or the fact that thousands of acres of rainforests are being chopped down all the time for the paper on your desk. Did you know that there is actually a safe alternative to using paper? There is actually a plant in Africa that grows twice as fast and produces the same damn paper, but no……..we musn’t, because chopping down trees is tradition!

Blah on them all I say. I’m not giving up my fight.

Well, I have a job interview tonight, which I’m not very excited about, because it’s for watching 4 10 month olds *gack!*

I have another one either this Thursday or next Thursday working at a kennel, which would be evenings and weekends, so I’m not really excited about that one either.

But I need to send my resume to this other position as a receptionist at a local company, which is the one I really like. It would be nice if something went my way for once.

Went grocery shopping last night at like 1 am in the fucking morning. Didn’t get to bed till 4am. Why does it seem like all my hostees have disappeared?

3 to 6 months it will take before my dad gets any money for disability. 3 to 6 months. Exactly how do they expect him to live until then? How would he buy food or pay bills if I wasn’t here? And I don’t even have another job yet. I’ll have to get one by September or we might be getting back to our survival skills with no home.

That’s really rotten.

I guess if I get desperate I’ll work at like, McDonalds or something. Blech. Of course they do pay decent money…

Did sorta talk to “Ex #1″ yesterday when he stopped by AGAIN. But I didn’t mention a divorce yet. I’ve got too much other stuff to deal with right now to worry about that crap.

Please please please someone give me a job, I need to take care of my father.

Everything is just like a big neverending spiral.

Dad quit his job today, as requested by his doctor. His doctor said he can either stop working, or lose his leg. He’s going to try to get on disability (hopefully) and do a few odd jobs around like mowing lawns or working with his friend some weekends. I’m glad he did, but at the same time I’m scared. I know I’m capable of getting a job. But I don’t have one yet. And until I get one, since my dad doesn’t work anymore, we are pretty much flat broke. I may try to take a loan out of the bank to tide us over. But my dad does have two more paychecks coming. *sigh*

Mostly hung out with my cousin today. I went to Ruby Tuesdays and had lunch while Steph was working, saw and old friend there that I don’t speak to anymore. Went over Stephs and played with her new baby bunny I gave her named Bailey. We even made him a little paper towel bunny diaper because he kept messing everywhere.

Came home to find this in my mailbox. It might be sincere, or she may be convinced she’s sincere now, but I honestly don’t think she’ll ever change. And I honestly just don’t want anything to do with her anymore.

So yeah, blah on the world Oddly enough I’m not really that depressed today. I think it was the bunny..