Another step towards Independance
Well I took another step towards independance today, I finally opened my own checking account that my husband can’t touch 
About time, now that I have the money to do it. At least now he can’t spend my money anymore. And I have beautiful Oriental Script on my checks too.
The odd thing is, the past several days have been very grey, clammy, cold. Just walking outside is like diving into a sick dampness that clings to your skin. Weather like that always makes me think that the world is walking on eggshells, including myself. I’m careful walking, careful driving, and everything is quiet, like we’re all trying to concentrate. It stayed this way while I walked into the bank.
The moment I stepped out, I was pretty distracted with my new found pride of having a checking account seperate from my husbands. But once I arrived home I saw that the clouds were no longer hanging over my head like a pendulumn, but in fact cleared away, and allowing little patches of blue to show through. Of course I smiled and selfishly acknowledged to myself that it was a sign of better things beginning to show through the clouds.
I’ve been fretting on something for a while. How do you deal with knowing that a friend is getting involved in something bad, and doesn’t know what they’re doing. And to add to the plot, you may be the one that started it unknowingly? And what if you can’t be open with them about it because they might fly off the handle? Grr, I need to rethink some of the decisions I make from now on. I just hope they can think for themselves 
Ex #4 was positively romantic and wonderful last night and today. Yet another cloud has disappeared.
I gave my dad an allowance today, I had to chuckle. $60 to buy some food for the animals and the rest to spend. I had it to spare, I had $400 in my pocket 
I’m debating with myself on whether or not to go to the Cafe today for the weekly pagan gathering. I should, and I want to. But something is holding me back. I hope I figure out what it is. I may just go anyway.
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