Thanks
I guess I’m really writing this to thank the people that got ahold of me last night and this morning. One in particular who wrote:
“Good Samhain to you.
I have wanted so badly lately to be able to sit down with you in person and have a long talk. The whole Ex #4 situation seems incredibly frustrating and depressing.
[edit]…it’s important for both partners to feel that they are getting as much out of the relationship as they are putting into it, you know?
At the same time, the only person who can change Ex #4 is himself, of course. It’s important for you to tell him what bothers you, what you feel badly about, but, beyond that, he’s the only one who can do something about it.
[edit]…what you’ve been going through shouldn’t have to happen. I have just been aching for you.
Think about your sister, your father; they depend on you. But most of all, think about your self. Think about the way the leaves look in the autumn, the way the wind feels against your cheeks, the soft touch of mist, the way the world looks so golden and rich at sunset. The smell of roses or baking bread or rain or evergreens. The sound of flute music on the wind. The look of trust in a pet’s eyes. Don’t ever let go of that. God… I’m getting really sappy, but it’s just all so very beautiful.
Fight for Ex #4–because you two have something beautiful despite your troubles–but if, by chance, he gives up on you, don’t *you* give up on you.”
Thanks you for that lovely e-mail, he really is worth fighting for.
On another note, Jeanie wrote a very good article in our local newspaper about pagans, which I’d like to share. Appropriate how it comes out today for Samhain 
Happy Samhain to everyone.
I’m still depressed, but I really need to let Ex #4 know that he’s worth fighting for, and that I will trust him as much as I’d want him to trust me. As much as this is hurting me, I’m hoping I’ll be a better person for dealing with it. I love you.
I’m about to carve my pumpkin and dress up like a fairy for work. I hope that she gives me strength today. I hope that the bond between Ex #4 and myself will stay as strong as ever.
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