Disappointment and Hurt
I’m having a heck of a time.
We had this emergency come in at work the other day. A medium size mutt looking dog was hit by a car. The lady carries the dog in, wrapped in her sons coat. Of course as soon as she walks in, blood literally -spills- from the dogs mouth. It was just non-stop, like pouring a glass of tomato juice. Sorry for the image.
So I have her lay it on the treatment table, and Dr. Wiseman (AKA Dr. Death), and one of the Techs, Linda start doing their thing. Meanwhile they have me holding the oxygen onto the dogs mouth. Of course blood is still just spilling everywhere, it’s all over my hands, my clothes, everywhere. Great way to experience my first time helping with an emergency in the back. Well, of course the dog died, because Dr. Wiseman is incompetant. It was horrible. I never want to work with that man again.
Jeff had a long talk with me Sunday night. He was really concerned that I’ve been avoiding him the past couple days. I actually felt like he was sincere about it too. He all but begged me to stay close friends with him, and to open up to him. It was very sweet.
Well, of course sweetness doesn’t last forever. Yesterday we pretty much agreed to me coming home after work and playing some Warcraft together or something. Well when I get home he’s already playing, no problem there. I thought perhaps I could join in later. Turns out later turned into never, he kinda just signs off and ignores my phone calls. Here it is 6:30am in the morning and I still haven’t heard from him. So I’m assuming he went out. Figures.
Why do I let myself get my hopes up? I guess it needed to happen. At least now I won’t put my guard down anymore. For now I just have to deal with the disappointment and pain, and hopefully I’ll learn from it. *sigh*
Why does it seem like my money keeps disappearing. I hate that. Where does it all go?
My Anniversary is coming up. November 30th will be my…..what….4th Anniversary? Not that I’ll be celebrating it or anything. I really need to get this divorce in order.
Do you think it’s possible to find a good, honest guy? I mean seriously? Is it worth the wait?
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5 Responses to “Disappointment and Hurt”
November 25th, 2002 at 11:00 pm
Damn… I’m sorry, Crys. The work story is just horrible. I can’t imagine having to go through that. Just the thought of my dogs… *Shudders*. Then, of course, there’s the guy issues. And, the way things seem to work with us is as follows. 95% of the guys in the world are assholes. It’s an accepted fact, and I’m sure many of the guys who read this will hate me for letting out the secret. Sorry. They may hide it well, but they’re still asses. Then, of the 5% that are left, half are gay. Leaving all the women of the world a total of 2.5% of the male population who are actually worth the while. Sorry to be so depressing, but look on the bright side. That means one out of every fifty guys you know is a winner. I know, it’s not a huge bright spot, but any port in a storm, eh? Anyway, good luck with it all. You know I’m here for you. Oh, and to cheer you up, for being such a great host…
*Randomly dances around Crys’s screen, in a massive attempt to cheer her up*
There you go! Don’t know if it worked, but it was worth a try…
November 26th, 2002 at 12:15 am
-bonks you on the head-
leave on.
survive
don’t wait for anyone!
by the way… you’re married?!! -blink- no i’m so totally clueless.
November 26th, 2002 at 2:50 am
Not a morning goes by I don’t think about cutting off my wang and damning all manhood..
Don’t worry, you’ll find your night in shinning armor sooner or later, just can’t give up the fight if the fight is worth fighting for. (gotta love my way with words!)
November 26th, 2002 at 9:25 am
LoL yeah, I’ve been married for a few years now, but I’ve been seperated for oh…..2 years? Dated Jeff during that time, and now, well……..poof.
November 27th, 2002 at 5:23 am
Oh my, that’s horrible about the dog. Doesn’t it make you sad to have to be around that kind of thing? Poor animals :\
I think there are a few good, honest guys out there. I have been with MANY assholes, cheaters, druggies, lairs and so on but I believe I have found one of them. He makes mistakes and hurts me sometimes, yes, but no one is perfect. You are a beautiful girl, very smart, open minded, goal oriented and I’m sure a great person to be around, so it shouldn’t be that hard for you to find one. Just don’t get one that’s not worth it, b/c you deserve the best. Don’t feel like you -have- to have a guy. I know it gets lonely and I know it hurts, but everything happens for a reason, and it will all fall into place sooner or later.
xx