No morals or common sense, the typical girlfriend
Where do peoples morals and common sense go?
Ex #4 told me this story last night about a friend of his who I believe lost his virginity to some girl who was going away to Korea for the military and wanted one last fling before she goes? And he didn’t use any type of protection.
How stupid can you get? What if she gets pregnant? What if there is some sort of STD involved? Why sleep with someone you aren’t even ‘with?’
I just cannot compute, in my mind, why people do shit like this. I don’t understand. I don’t know why Ex #4, the person who I respected most in the world, would lower himself so much to sleep with a complete stranger. He regrets it sure, and he says he’ll never do it again. But it’s already done. You don’t need to do it again, all that would do would verify that you’re a manwhore. Right now you’re just a cheater.
*sigh* I had an awful night. I was talking to Ex #4. When he told me that story of his friend, it hit too close to home. He knew it and stopped, I’m sure that he felt bad. Then I suddenly hear a bunch of drunk females knocking on his room door. Apparently his suitemate let them in. And of course, being the drunk whores that they were, they were all over Ex #4 while he was on the phone with me.
I wish I could really explain how hurt I was. No amount of repetative whining and depressing sentences could ever really explain. I cried, a lot. It took him a few minutes, but he eventually got them to leave.
Why does he want to be in an environment like that? Why does he want to have friends like that? Why would anyone? Maybe my expectations of my friends is a bit too high? Maybe my own morals are a bit too much like a fantasy? Maybe sleeping around with any fucking person you want is the way that the world works and I should just accept it? Maybe drugs and alcohol and cigarettes are okay because they are ‘fun’ and never really hurt anyone so why not toss out all of my moral fiber and become one of the girls that people like Ex #4, people that I’ve given my heart to, want to be with?
Would that then, make me a suitable girlfriend?
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8 Responses to “No morals or common sense, the typical girlfriend”
December 6th, 2002 at 3:39 am
Nah, I don’t think your expectations are set too high.. I think he’s trying to hold on to some freedom… and to him freedom is loose women, booze and smokes..
December 6th, 2002 at 4:04 am
Okay, I can’t speak for the drugs, but the alcohol and cigarettes aren’t what’s wrong with Jeff. What’s wrong with him is he has a screwed up idea of how the world works and in reality is totally clueless. Don’t let his misconceptions drag you down. YOU’RE the one who sees how it really is, not him. If je can’t see what a wonderful person you are and how much he’s throwing away for his “fun”, it’s his loss.
December 6th, 2002 at 12:14 pm
I’ve never understood the mind set it takes to go off and screw complete strangers. If that’s you’re idea of fine the fine go for it……but Crys if ‘those’ people can’t realise what they are giving up on by choosing that lifestyle it’s there problem…and you’re better off without them
December 6th, 2002 at 1:09 pm
Ignore Mitch, Crys. No offense, Mitch, but I just can’t agree with that. You don’t set your standards too high. You just haven’t found someone to meet those standards. Wait and see. What you’re waiting for will come around and bite you in the ass screaming “Here I am!!!!!!!” when you least expect it. Stay strong, dear.
*Hugs*
December 6th, 2002 at 10:21 pm
well you could also blame him for allowing girls to do that to him.
-hug-
December 7th, 2002 at 12:33 am
umm… mitch didn’t say she set her standards too high. he said they weren’t too high.
December 7th, 2002 at 7:44 am
Thanks Cayla for correcting Joe so I didn’t have to.
I just think that you obviously still go well together, because you’ve talked about having some fun with him since the split up, but there must be one or two things that just aren’t connecting. Wish I could pin point them for you.. but that’ll be something for ya’ll to figure out on your own.
December 7th, 2002 at 11:25 am
Oh, poo. Sorry about that, Mitch. But, everything else I said still holds.