Small Request

This is just a small request. All of the advice that people have been giving me to try and help me during this extremelly difficult time is so very appreciated. It really is. But please don’t bash Ex #4 in my comments. This is still the love of my life and the most important person to me, no matter what he’s done. I vent about him a lot, especially lately. And little did I know but he -does- read this journal. But I’m still very much in love with him and I’m trying so hard to feel my way through this entire situation. Sometimes I can handle it, but other times, like when he and I fight, I’m so desperate for somewhere to release my anger or frustration. And a lot of times Ex #4 isn’t there for me, so I have to do it here.

But bashing him isn’t going to make me feel better, it isn’t going to make him want to talk to me anymore, it isn’t going to make him realize what he does, if anything it will make him angry with me and try to avoid me, which will hurt so much more And I don’t want to hurt him, if anything I want to be there for him and comfort him. And I want him to be able to open up to me. I just wish he would realize that and not take such offense to a lot of the things I do.

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1. Mitch Says:
   December 7th, 2002 at 7:47 am

   Totally understood. I might be one of the bigger offenders on this, and I want to apologize to both Crys and Jeff if he does read this. It’s just hard not to get envolved when ya want the best for a friend. Your right though, bashing him doesn’t fix anything and since you still care so much for him, it wouldn’t make you feel any better either. So if you need anybody to rant too, and you can’t get here.. feel free to barrow my ear for a while..

2. sK Says:
   December 8th, 2002 at 11:42 am

   yes madam.

3. Jen Says:
   December 8th, 2002 at 4:19 pm

   wow that graphic up there is really nice, very soothing.. take cares bye bye

4. ellsie Says:
   December 10th, 2002 at 4:20 am

   *hugs* i respect that. jeff is sucha lucky man =)

5. Em Says:
   December 11th, 2002 at 10:19 am

   Sorry if I’ve ever come acroos as doing this Crys….sometimes the words that are meant to be protectful come out sounding spiteful…I’m sorry.

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