Pagan Gatherings/Remembering Jon/Aunt in the Hospital
I am so god damn frustrated. The pagan group that I’ve been a part of for a year now is falling a part. All because the oh so good Pagans who love and respect ALL religions, are now attacking one of our fellow witches on mere hearsay. He is not having us meet at the Irish Moon Coffee House as much anymore due to the local Christian marauders causing him a lot of grief for it. I know he’s not perfect, from what I hear he’s done a few rotten things to another friend of mine. But god damn, how fucking hypocritical and disgusting can people get? I try to be a mediator in the whole thing instead of saying what I really wanted to, and I’m also attacked personally in an e-mail basically saying I was trying to act like a goody two shoes. Yeaaaaaaah okay.
I’m sitting here, just finished watching Bloodsport, now watching Kickboxer, and I keep thinking about my cousin Jon. The one who was murdered a few years back and was a year older than myself. He used to be really into kung fu type movies. He and I used to spar a lot when we were younger, actually. Since we both took karate for numerous years. It’s really strange not having him around. It’s like you always expect people to be there, and when they’re gone, there’s just this empty pocket that’s never filled. You forget about it for a while, but once it comes up, it’s just…….I dunno, weird.
I have an aunt in the hospital as well. She’s 90 years old, broke her hip, and when they tried to do surgery they found a blockage in her heart. Once they got that fixed, her kidneys failed. I seriously don’t think she’s going to make it. I can just feel it in my gut. The same thing happened to all of my grandparents. Every single one of them. Yet another person who used to be a significant part of my life that will just be gone. Another empty pocket.
She’s afraid of Santa Clause. Imagine that. A 90 year old woman afraid of Santa Clause.
So yeah, my days aren’t exactly full of sunshine and flowers at the moment. But at least I have Ex #4.
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4 Responses to “Pagan Gatherings/Remembering Jon/Aunt in the Hospital”
February 6th, 2003 at 3:54 am
There is meanheartedness and hypocrisy in the members of every religion, some are just more vocal and obvious than others. (I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet and distant lately; I’ve been meaning to write to you…)
February 6th, 2003 at 6:18 am
I’m a bit disgusted with the whole group too. I’m keeping my ass out of it, lol.
February 6th, 2003 at 8:46 am
Oh, Crys . . . ::virtual hugs::
February 6th, 2003 at 8:01 pm
Blech…there’s nothing worse than people professing to tolerant but in reality being just as hypocritical and narrowminded as everyone else