Happy Birthday
Thank you to everyone who left comments, IM’s, or e-mails wishing me a Happy Birthday. I have to be honest, I was very skeptical about whether or not today would turn out to be a Mary Poppins birthday. Ex #4 and I haven’t had a very good weekend you might say. He’s been on this party/drinking binge and I’ve felt very neglected. We had made a ‘pact’ a while ago that my birthday would be reserved soley for me. It wasn’t until early this morning that I was informed that was no longer true. Instead Ex #4 would be going out to party with some friends.
So I was pretty miserable this morning.
I went to the Druids Grove with Sati, enjoyed my time there, ate breakfast, chatted a bit about the upcoming Beltane gathering, watched Sati make her faerie wings for the faerie festival, and then serenaded some of my fellow heathens with my guitar and voice. I don’t know what’s been with my stage fright lately. It’s non-existant. I don’t know if it’s because I’m around people of like minds or what. But even at the coffee house with complete strangers I felt fine. Maybe I’m finally over my stage fright? Now if I can broaden my musical vocabulary. (”When I walked in I thought I heard Janis Joplin, but then I realized there was no rasp to the voice and I thought: Wow, that’s much better than Janis Joplin”) That made me smile.
Afterwards I came home, feeling a little better. Sati offered me some chocolate cake for my birthday, my dad also gifted me with icecream cake and Harry Potter 2. I was still pretty depressed about Ex #4, Jeanie can vouch for that, I was a mess. I just couldn’t understand. One of the few special days out of the year for -me-, and he wanted to spend it with other people.
I was able to talk to him later on, I guess you could say we talked things out. I’ll never understand how the human emotion can go from a whirlwind of mixed anger, sadness, depression, and vengence to a simple breeze of calm. But I guess that’s how I feel right now. Just, simple. He’s still out with his friends, but he did spend some time with me before he left, and he ’swears’ up and down that he will make it up to me this week.
I guess my initiation into ‘Queenhood’ will just have to wait.
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2 Responses to “Happy Birthday”
April 18th, 2003 at 4:02 am
I’ll be sending it over soon. =)
Btw, Got a new layout.
April 18th, 2003 at 4:02 am
I’ll be sending it over soon. =)
Btw, Got a new layout.