Internet World/Dad’s heart condition
My motivation is the pits. Do you have any idea how pathetic it is for me to be sitting here, just wasting away. I know I should be calling around for jobs but I don’t ‘feel’ like it. I know I should throw myself in the shower, get dressed, and go out and get some needed supplies (shampoo, etc). But no, I just sit here, staring at my computer screen like an idiot.
Maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. I did just wake up. Then again this isn’t the only time this has happened.
What a world we have evolved too, waking up every morning and the very first thing we do is check our e-mail. Welcome to cyberspace, please hang on. And that’s all we ever do, hang off of text written across the screen as if our life were nothing more than a few pixels and online tests. Heck I know some people who check their e-mail every hour. I wonder how many people go outside to check their mailbox every hour?
Don’t even get me started on the latest fashion trends. Pajamas, swept up hair, no make-up, maybe not even a shower since two days ago. No need, no one on the other side of this big grey box would know or care.
And cleanliness? If we didn’t have the pyramid of soda cans on our desk with an empty plate of dinner from 4 nights ago, I’m beginning to think we’d feel out of place. (Mind you, the dinner is microwaved).
I really shouldn’t say these things tho. I do love the internet. I love having so much information at my fingertips, I love being able to talk to Ex #4 everyday and not pay 10 cents a minute (even tho I probably do call him every day :P). I love my friends, I love playing MUDs. I’m just bitter at the lack of motivation it gives some people. Like myself. If only it weren’t so addicting.
My father went to the doctor the other day. It appears he is having heart problems again. And with his current weight, his doctor says he is at high risk of a heart attack. I can’t deal with that, I don’t even want to -think- about it. So we’re going to go on a strict diet since I really should be eating better than I do anyway. No more eating past 6pm, no more pizza…..even though we broke that rule last night *sigh*. My father is addicted to potato chips and loves to eat a nice country breakfast every morning at the local country restaurant.
Next weekend is camping! I think getting back to my pagan roots will be good for me.
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3 Responses to “Internet World/Dad’s heart condition”
April 27th, 2003 at 7:39 am
You know my request… AS USUAL… PICTURE
April 27th, 2003 at 8:02 am
It is absolutely scary how much what you wrote described me and my situation. sigh. pyramid of soda cans.
April 27th, 2003 at 9:20 am
I think Jeff has a pyramid of soda cans too. ha. I could have a pyramid of water bottles?