Haven’t really been home much this past week. I’ve been spending time with friends mostly, there hasn’t been any reason to stay home. If I stay home, Ex #4 and I fight, and he goes out partying almost every night anyway so I figured what’s the point. May as well spend time with people that at least make me -feel- like they like having me around.

Had a rather stressful day yesterday. From spending 3 hours at the MVA (where you get drivers license and stuff) with Coryn, going to the bank only to have both of my cards eaten, going to the gas station only to realize I had no money, going BACK to the bank to get money out, trying to get subs only to find out I don’t have enough money -again- and heading -back- to the bank. Just a mess. The day made up for it later though when I went out with Coryn, Jason, and Ian. I had an absolute blast that my side is still sore and I didn’t get home till 5:30am.

On the bright side of life, I found out that the girl who got me fired for stealing money, Linda, was fired yesterday for stealing money. HRMMM HOW IRONIC. I knew she’d get caught sooner or later now that they realized it wasn’t me. Now all I have to do is get the office manager fired and I may actually get my job back. I also heard that some kids were caught with Special K (Don’t ask me to spell it, it’s a horse tranquilizer that people use to get off), and said they got it from someone at our work. Tsk tsk.

Tomorrow I’m going up to the place that I’ll be camping for the Beltane weekend, to haul wood for them since I’m the only one with a 4-wheel drive strong enough to make it up to the Ed’ss where we plan to have two 20 foot bonfires. Hopefully it’s not too muddy.

Money is getting tighter by the day. I have a $600 insurance bill I have to somehow pay by the 30th and I just don’t have the money. I’m hoping they’ll let me do it in like two payments or something. I don’t know why these places expect people to just have $600 laying around. If the payment is late OBVIOUSLY I didn’t have the money. Idiots.

Friday Five

1. Who is your favorite celebrity?

Don’t have a favorite.

2. Who is your least favorite?

Britney Spears. Please let me shoot her.

3. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life?

Henry Rollins, The driver for Gravedigger, and uh, some local people.

4. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not?

I’d like to be kinda……underground famous. For my music. Too famous and I can’t have privacy.

5. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why?

I wouldn’t mind trading places with Trent Reznor for a day. Just to see what his life is really like and where his inspiration comes from.

Thank you to everyone who left comments, IM’s, or e-mails wishing me a Happy Birthday. I have to be honest, I was very skeptical about whether or not today would turn out to be a Mary Poppins birthday. Ex #4 and I haven’t had a very good weekend you might say. He’s been on this party/drinking binge and I’ve felt very neglected. We had made a ‘pact’ a while ago that my birthday would be reserved soley for me. It wasn’t until early this morning that I was informed that was no longer true. Instead Ex #4 would be going out to party with some friends.

So I was pretty miserable this morning.

I went to the Druids Grove with Sati, enjoyed my time there, ate breakfast, chatted a bit about the upcoming Beltane gathering, watched Sati make her faerie wings for the faerie festival, and then serenaded some of my fellow heathens with my guitar and voice. I don’t know what’s been with my stage fright lately. It’s non-existant. I don’t know if it’s because I’m around people of like minds or what. But even at the coffee house with complete strangers I felt fine. Maybe I’m finally over my stage fright? Now if I can broaden my musical vocabulary. (”When I walked in I thought I heard Janis Joplin, but then I realized there was no rasp to the voice and I thought: Wow, that’s much better than Janis Joplin”) That made me smile.

Afterwards I came home, feeling a little better. Sati offered me some chocolate cake for my birthday, my dad also gifted me with icecream cake and Harry Potter 2. I was still pretty depressed about Ex #4, Jeanie can vouch for that, I was a mess. I just couldn’t understand. One of the few special days out of the year for -me-, and he wanted to spend it with other people.

I was able to talk to him later on, I guess you could say we talked things out. I’ll never understand how the human emotion can go from a whirlwind of mixed anger, sadness, depression, and vengence to a simple breeze of calm. But I guess that’s how I feel right now. Just, simple. He’s still out with his friends, but he did spend some time with me before he left, and he ’swears’ up and down that he will make it up to me this week.

I guess my initiation into ‘Queenhood’ will just have to wait.

Went shopping yesterday for camping equipment. Wal-mart has an okay selection I guess, the necessities for a nice price but I’m picky. So I’ll have to go to an actual outdoor store sometime soon.

I went to the coffee house last night. I needed the distraction from life I suppose. Sati convinced me to bring my guitar along since they weren’t having any entertainment scheduled, and low and behold I performed, and I performed well. It wasn’t anything organized or anything, I just sat down in front of my seven grain sandwhich and cookies and cream ice thingy and played guitar for my friends and patrons of the coffee house. It was quite amazing for me actually. I surprised even myself at how much lack of nervousness there really was. I didn’t care, all I wanted to do was play music and enjoy myself. Needless to say I feel really good about myself right now. Hearing strangers clap and ask for more, I’ve discovered, is something I crave.

A bunch of the girls and myself got together over coffee and gossiped about all sorts of things. It’s amazing the stories I heard about people I knew, some who used to frequent the coffee house, some who still do. I am………………very shocked.

I got home at about 2am to a gift on my desk in front of my monitor. A beautiful glistening crystal rose with cerulean crystal petals. A gift from my sister apparently, for my birthday. A very nice ending to the evening.

If anyone is familiar with the 3d text affect, I need some advice on how to make it work for all browsers. If you go to my MUD site, you can see it in use there, but it looks funky for some people for some reason. Help?

I had fun at the Druids Grove on Sunday, except that we broke down there for a while. Luckily someone was heading towards Pennsylvania so they were able to give us a ride home. One of the highlights of the evening was presenting a $240 gift certificate to one of the senior Druids for a celtic armband tattoo for her birthday, and also when some Christians stopped by trying to sell bibles. They were in for quite a shock when we told them we were a druidic church.

I’ve been doing a lot of spring cleaning lately. I like the feeling I get after I’m done cleaning, that whole Feng Shui energy seems so much…..I dunno…..fresh?

I’ve been planning my camping trip for Beltane and the Fairie Festival that weekend. I plan to take my sister along for the entire weekend so I’ll have her all to myself. I’m really excited, I just hope I don’t forget anything important. I miss camping, I haven’t done it in years, and being around so many pagans, it will truly be spiritual. Anyone have any camping tips?