Had an interview today at another Veterinary Hospital. I would say the interview went well, but I also thought the last one went well and didn’t get it so I’m not keeping my hopes up. Still, much positive vibes are appreciated.

I haven’t really been up to much unfortunately. Trying to complete about a gazillion web projects. Validating my MUDs website (My journal comes next) thanks to the help of Sarah. I opened up my Valeria fanlisting, but it appears I need to do some work on it still.

Coryn took me out for lunch and then we decided to be drunken idiots while playing monopoly for 5 hours. It was nice to be distracted from life for a while.

I’ve been working on my music, but when I e-mailed the Record Label back asking them what format they wanted it in, they just didn’t sound very excited lol. Not really ‘excited’ per se, but….I don’t know, like they were taking it serious. They still wanted the music, and I’m still very thankful for that. But I don’t have high hopes about anything coming of it either.

Yes, my life has been this dull.

I think I played till my fingers bled today. But it felt so good. I’m not happy with the results yet, but I’m ecstatic at Ex #1plorations I’ve made with myself, my voice especially. My poor guitar is getting a nice exercise I recorded an original temp file just to let some of my friends listen to it and give their honest brutal opinions, and they seem pretty confident. But I need to work on my changes, so that’s my goal tomorrow. My guitar was pretty redundant. But I’m not the worlds best guitar player by far, not that I can’t learn. I want to sing and play, that’s all I’ve wanted to do. I feel like I’ve got some real potential here, and hell I like it. I even incorporated my djembe into the song which was pretty wild.

This new program I got today that Melissa recommended to me and it lets me mix fairly easily. But you have to consider that all I’m using is a stock mic, a cracked program, and a crappy computer to do this. I have no money to offer, all I have is my voice and my guitar and a truckload of hopes and dreams.

Talking to Myk today though, I’m just not sure I can do it. I’m going to try, but I don’t think I have something worth listening to yet. I’m hoping that will change with time, I’m just anxious to send something off -now-, hopefully these people will be patient with me. I really only want to play for myself, I just want to play music, but it’s like these days you have to be able to play something that sells. Talk about pressure.

Maybe tomorrow I’ll have something I’m willing to put up. For now, if you’re really interested in hearing my first attempt, I’ll send you the URL, just leave a message in the comments here.

Received this in my inbox today, and am in absolute fucking shock:

Hi,

So yeeeeah, I can’t help but be completely nervous, excited, and even paranoid that it’s a hoax all at once. Mostly because my luck just doesn’t hold out that well, so knowing that, they’ll probably think I suck But I am going to spend the next few days preparing some music (hopefully getting my mic to work again) and sending off some samples. I’d actually like to incorporate a djembe in a few of my pieces and see how that would turn out. I know Godsmack’s latest song has some tribal drumming in it and it sounds very sweet. My friend Clay and I were goofing off a few weeks back with my guitar and Djembe and it really does have a unique sound to it.

Wow, just….wow.

When you get news like this, you just can’t help but have high hopes.

On another note, I retrieved a picture of my cousin at her wedding which you can view here. She really does look happy I just hope it lasts..

Well, didn’t get the job, but I do have another interview set up on Thursday at another Vets office. They said they needed a ‘tech.’ What the hell, I’ve had tech training, not a lot but at least some and I’ve worked in Vet offices before so I know wha the hell is going on. It makes no sense.

*sigh*

I just keep spiraling downwards. I hate life sometimes. I hate asking but if anyone feels like donating anything to help with some bills or at least gas money to get to and from interviews, I’d be much appreciative.

Just got back from my interview. In my eyes, I felt the interview went really well. She was happy about Ex #1perience I already have in Veterinary Medicine, and apparently when she called the Owings Mills Office, she spoke with the head tech there, Pam, and she gave me a wonderful review. The lady interviewing me also said that she generally doesn’t call 24 Hour Vet for reviews because they tend to give bad reviews all the time. Which is -great- news for me. So I actually feel like I have a shot at this job. As long as nothing about 24 hour comes up, I should be set. I’ll finally be able to buy food regularly again
Send me much positive vibes if you can. I really want this job.

Stolen from Dani

:::10 Bands You’ve Seen Live:::

1. Metallica

2. Soundgarden

3. Jethro Tull

4. Rancid

5. Black Crowes

6. Psychotica

7. The Ramones

8. The Melvins

9. Screaming Trees

10. Girls against Boys

:::09 Things You’re Looking Forward To:::

1. Ex #4

2. Star Wars Galaxies

3. A Job

4. Finding a decent place to live

5. Opening my MUD

6. Making my Dad a Grandfather

7. Getting back on my feet

8. All these court cases to be over

9. A new Layout

:::08 Things You Wear Daily:::

1. A series of silver rings

2. My copper and leather bracelet

3. Studded watch

4. Pentacle

5. Black Eyeliner

6. Red Docs (need new boots, only wear shoes when going to places tho)

7. Earrings

8. Eyebrow ring

:::07 Things That Annoy You:::

1. People frothing at the mouth for plugs and hits

2. The millions of layouts consisting of Christina or Britney Spears

3. My mother

4. Ex #4 playing video games too much

5. Money

6. Bill Collectors and Sales Calls

7. Not having a shower every day

:::06 Things You Touch Every Day:::

1. My computer

2. My animals

3. The phone

4. Water

5. My bed

6. The shower?

:::05 Things You Do Every Day:::

1. Shower

2. Talk to Ex #4

3. Check E-mail

4. Work on my MUD

5. Work on Websites

:::04 People You’d Want to Spend More Time With:::

1. Ex #4

2. Steph

3. The Crew (Jake, Clay, Dan, Phil, Heather, Jos, Teddy)

4. Sati

:::03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:::

1. Conan: The Barbarian

2. Star Wars Trilogy

3. Practical Magic

:::02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment:::

1. “Faint” by Linkin Park

2. “Sanitarium” Metallica

:::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:::

1. Ex #4ers
Dad seems to be doing better. I think his fever finally broke this morning, it’s like 99.6. He still seems a little week, and already he’s talking about mowing the lawn but I’m trying to talk him out of it. I just want to lock him up somewhere for good so he doesn’t get hurt.

I don’t know how often I cried yesterday. Yes, I cried. Mostly when I first found out he was sick, I was fine later in the day. But in the morning I cried. I cried in the shower, I cried while trying to find him some comfortable clothes, I cried talking to Ex #4 on the phone. My dad is very important to me, he’s always been someone I’ve counted on and needed. I can’t even stand thinking about him being gone, it just makes me tear up again.

All of this makes me think I should spend more quality time with him. Going fishing or something. We’ve never had the “I love you, Dad” sort of relationship. I’ve always been a Daddy’s Girl but I’ve also always been a Tomboy. It’s kind of a father and son relationship, though I guess maybe it shouldn’t be. I don’t know. Ex #4 was telling me yesterday that I should hold my dads hand and tell him I love him, and I was just kinda thrown off. That’s just not something we do. We just have a bond. I hope that doesn’t make me a bad daughter.

I have 3 interviews this week Hopefully I’ll have more..and 1 is at a vet! I’m really anxious for that one. At least I have some dress clothes now, so time to whip out the charm. Wish me luck.

Okay I’m very scared right now. Dad has 103 fever and the shakes.