Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
I try not to let my emotions override my senses but sometimes my heart just feels too much. I’m all for video games, or parties, or anything else that people seem to addict themselves to. I’ve had much fun with video games myself. But when they take over your life, and cause you to hurt the people you care about, that’s where it should end.
Maybe it’s just because I’m watching some romantic movie right now while my heart is aching that I feel compelled to write this pointless entry, and I may even regret it tomorrow, but bare with me.
I can’t put into words what a surprisingly wonderful morning I had today. Ex #4 called me during his break from class because he missed me (something he -never- does), and he called me again on his way home from class because he missed me -again- and said when he got home he wanted to spend time with me. How wonderful and uplifting I felt the whole morning. I could practically fly out the window and hitch a ride on cloud 9 all the way to Illinois to be with him.
But things changed so drastically when he got home. His father argued with him about something, which I can understand putting him in a foul mood. But for about 12 hours straight now, since he got home at 1pm, and it almost being 1am now, he has done nothing but play Starwars Galaxies and talk on 3-way calling with two of his friends who were also playing.
What is this Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde that I have fallen in love with? He has not bothered to call, when I had to call and interupt his mother to get ahold of him he gave me a load of attitude because ‘his friends were waiting.’
It’s not like I’m even preventing him from playing the damn game. But for him to disappoint me so badly, I don’t even know what I should be feeling. I’m angry, I’m hurt, I’m depressed, and most importantly, I just want to give up on the entire relationship because stuff like -this- keeps happening. It’s a sickly build up of pain that I don’t know what to do with.
He has so many positive attributes though, he really does. I don’t quite know what to do. I thought he had changed. He -was- changing……things were going so well. One step forward and two steps back.
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One Response to “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde”
July 4th, 2003 at 10:07 am
Been there, done that. The only thing that helped in my case was to seriously talk. As in back off the games or I’m leaving kind of talk, not a talk that will give him the impression of bitching. I’m sure he probably is a great guy, but they tend to get lost in their games.