Erm, was informed that I’m supposed to go camping today, so…..that’s where I’ll be! Though I’m going to miss Ex #4 something awful Thank goodness for cheap ass cellphones.

Bank closed one of my checking accounts (one I just wrote $500 worth of checks for bills….), so I’m spending the AM packing and trying to straighten that out.

Last time I was camping was for Beltane, and I was actually hired that weekend to work for Dr. Death. Maybe history will repeat itself? (Maybe not).

*sigh* I’m so depressed at this unemployed bullshit. I hope this camping trip does something good for me.

Jehovas Witnesses decided to pay me a visit yesterday. I think they finally figured out their trick. I just can’t say no to old ladies. But I didn’t let them in the house, I just stood there and nodded, took their little pamplet, and waited till they left. I don’t need to find Christ, but thanks anyway. Next time I’ll do what my dad suggested, run and hide.

Erg. Just called the Vet. Apparently the girl they hired “didn’t work out” sooooo she said she still had my resume but to fax another one just in case because she’s been doing so many interviews.

Should I remain hopeful?

Should I comment my opinions about the Ten Commandments being removed from that State Courthouse? I know a lot of people are being really sensitive about it on both sides….

Maybe I shouldn’t…..

I just went out to take a peek at Mars, (for those of you unfamiliar with what’s going on, read this), and it is absolutely gorgeous. It’s like a bright fiery star just twinkling proudly amidst a sea of blackness, almost as if it knows it’s brighter than any star in the sky, no matter how hard they try to shine. It’s absolutely wonderful, and while I stand and stare up at it, I feel a sense of pulling, like it’s trying to pull me up into the sky with it. I’m drawn to whatever energy it happens to be pouring over our little spirits right now.

And now on to more mundane things.

I found out that one of the jobs I applied for (and was rejected for), just put another ad up in the paper today. Which sorta annoys me because they -should- still have my resume on file. So I’m going to call them up again anyway and find out what’s up. How depressing that they didn’t think to call me if they needed more help. (This was the really gorgeous place).

So tomorrow should focus mainly on calling around for jobs.

Besides the financial situation, I am mostly content. Ex #4 has been wonderful and the only thing I can really complain about is how lazy I’ve been feeling. I need to get out and DO something because I’m creating a tunnel for myself by acting as a hermit. Tomorrow I will tackle the treadmill and call some old friends that I haven’t talked to in a few weeks.

A new project that Sarah and I made:

Witches Weekly

1. What animal do you feel best represents your personal totem/spirit, and why?
My own questions and I have trouble answering them argh lol. Actually right now I feel inbetween totems. For the longest time it was a Hawk, which represents strength and honor, but I don’t feel very strong right now. If anything I feel like I’m going through a transition in my life, and I’m thinking a new totem will present itself soon.

2. Who was your first familiar?
My first cat, Tom, who I had from the time I was 4 until 22. He was a white and brown cat, and the only duplicate I’ve ever seen is that cat Romeo from “Romancing the Stone.” My parents tell me that when we went to this old farm, that I drug that cat out by his front paw and he just walked right along side me. So of course, from that moment on, he was mine
3. If you could reincarnate into a creature, what creature would you be?
I’d love to be able to fly. Something bold and beautiful, like a bald eagle.

I’ve had 25 people so far volunteer to sign this Affidavit to stop the Maryland Government from removing tax exemption status for my Druids Grove. This is WONDERFUL!! I can’t believe so many people have stepped up, wanting to help. And that’s just from me and Sarah’s weblog!

Makes me wonder what would happen if this was to be announced on Witches Voice.

Speaking of Sarah, we’ve been going crazy with fanlistings lately. I don’t know what is so addicting about them, but it’s like…….stamp or rock collecting or something.

Newest Fanlistings:

The State

Dr. Quinn, Medicine Woman

Albus Dumbledore

Today was the first day in a long time that it hasn’t been hot and miserable outside. Usually when it’s hot I don’t want to do anything. But today I did everything. I cleaned, I slept in the hammock, I made a new squirrel friend, I watched two yellow finch lovers dance in and out of our sunflowers, I ate breakfast outside, I started going through the belongings from my marriage, sorting through old stuff.

It was just a beautiful day.

Ex #4 seems to be adjusting to his college life nicely. But he’s been very careful to make sure that I don’t feel left out, which is nice. I hope that this year he puts more thought in his studies so he doesn’t run into the same grade issues as last year.

It’s time for me to really buckle down and get a job though. A day job. I know I shouldn’t be picky given the situation, but I refuse to get a night job that will prevent me from ever spending any time with Ex #4 at all, since he’s in school all day. Still no word on the……….hrm, probably 40+ applications I’ve sent off this summer.

Sometimes I sit and think of all the things I could be doing right now if I had a job. I mean after some time -I- would be able to go to college. ME?! College? Long remembered dream. I could afford a Digital Camera so that the here and now that will eventually become yesterday, won’t be forgotten. I’ve already missed so many of my sisters youth, already 9 years old and I have so few pictures to show for it. I don’t want to miss anymore.

I could buy new SHOES. Clothes……..groceries regularly. I could buy a book? A movie? My fathers medication, parts for my dying bronco.

I can live without all that, of course. My most important goal is to make sure we stay where we live and don’t get thrown out on the streets, keeping my dad healthy, and visiting Ex #4.

Just found this out…….the Maryland government is trying to remove the Groves tax exemption status.

If anyone is interested in helping to stop this, I can e-mail you a copy of an affadavit to sign and mail to me. This is the -only- pagan church in Maryland, and I don’t want it to close down.

So yeah, been sorta busy with that stuff. Working on a new layout for the Druids Grove. I feel very honored to be asked to do it. It makes me feel like I’m actually contributing to the Grove. It’s not up yet though, that’s still the uh……old layout……

One of Jeff’s fraternity brothers commited suicide this morning by overdosing on aspirin. He didn’t know him very well but he’s still pretty upset. So any positive vibes you can send him are well appreciated.

I went to an interview on Tuesday……it seemed like a nice place. Kinda dirty and unorganized compared to the last two. The people were really nice though, but the hours were horrible. I have yet to hear back from them, and she said she’d call me yesterday……so I’ll probably call tomorrow and find out what’s up. But I figure by now I already know the answer anyway. Another rejection

However, I am still trudging along. I feel pretty void of all hope right now, but I’m forcing myself to continue sending out resumes, and to continue calling about jobs. Maybe one day I’ll get lucky. Maybe.

One of my neighbors was having a fundraiser for a relative of theirs that has Leukemia. They invited approximately 300 people at $10 a head to the party. Apparently some “Hells Angels” were even coming up from Florida (I think some of the neighbors are bikers). Anyway, apparently the cops got wind of it and made everyone leave, so they only had about 30 people show up.

This…………pisses me off.

I didn’t grow up in the era of the biker gangs, so I don’t know all their history. But my dad was telling me that the Hells Angels really weren’t that bad. And for the cops to cause such a disturbance over it, after……how many years? Is pathetic. My dad did tell me this story of this other biker gang called the “Pagans” though, who apparently killed a friend of his back in the 60’s/70’s with an axe.

But lets leave it up to society to stereotype all because of one

There is a community developing down the street, of groundhogs. I drive by there almost every day and there are always 3 or 4 groundhogs roaming about in the same spot.

Next weekend a bunch of people from the Grove are going camping at Ed’s Farms due to that thing with Mars being the closest it’s ever been to Earth. I’ve been invited to go of course, but I’m still debating on it. They are inviting TONS of people and I’m not interested in dealing with some crazy bullshit. The last campout we had where we invited a lot of strangers (Beltane), we told them it was pot-luck, but -everyone- decided to eat food, even if they didn’t donate anything. So we were kinda pissy the rest of the weekend. Sati and I both agreed that we’ll feed each other, and our friends, but that’s it.

Speaking of the Grove, there’s this really creepy guy down there that everyone seems to be having issues with. He’s like 25 and just starting showing up on Sundays for Rites of Caffiena like 3 weeks ago. He’s taken it upon himself to try and get to know all the single girls of the Grove. Unfortunately it really makes going to the Grove uncomfortable anymore because I know this guy is going to be there. He talks too much, usually about things that I honestly don’t have any interest in. He asks me if I want children, if I plan to go to college. And if I tell him I can’t afford to go to college he’s like “Well…….I always thought I would be one of those people that would have to put someone through college.” He’s always wanting to give the women of the Grove massages and he’s just…….CREEPY. He follows me around like a lost puppy and sometimes I just want my solace, you know?

I’ve taken over the Nature and Religion/Mythology section over at tfl.org, and given up the Games category. This makes me very happy.

Much more to come soon, sorry that this is so short and sweet, I am not in the right mind-set to be eloquent.