Self-Sufficient Depression
Odd how after I post that last entry about being content, I go downhill. I had my battle with depression. Thinking about all the things I want to happen that I don’t feel will ever happen. Like something as simple as owning my own home. Or being able to bury my father should he pass on (I hope that never happens anytime soon).
My biggest fear in life is not being able to support myself, and I’m living that fear right now. Where would I be if I didn’t have “Ex #1″ and my father to help me? It certainly wouldn’t be here. Oh I’m sure I’d have family or friends to take me in if it ever came to me living on the streets. That’s not the issue.
Rather than go through all of the painstaking thoughts and moments, suffice to say that I really need to focus more on getting a job. For a while I was, but after being rejected so many times, your ’steam’ tends to wind down. I also need to do things that will make me feel proud of myself, or accomplished. I need to clean and take care of the home that my father is providing for me. I need to go out and exercise regularly and eat better for -me-. I need to take better care of my finances and bills.
I just need to DO something. Sitting here crying about all my misfortunes certainly isn’t going to bring some rich, good-looking millionaire to my door, is it.
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5 Responses to “Self-Sufficient Depression”
September 8th, 2003 at 3:02 am
If you need ANYTHING at ALL just let me know! And remember what I said earlier… REAL MAIL with my ghetto handwriting!!
September 8th, 2003 at 12:24 pm
Crys, as soon as I get that million, I’ll hunt you down.
September 8th, 2003 at 1:00 pm
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September 8th, 2003 at 3:36 pm
ha ha okay you two
September 11th, 2003 at 1:46 am
About job stuff:
remember, that hiring/employment in towns go in cycles. Some weeks are bad, some are good. Some places you won’t have a chance no matter how qualified you are, they already have someone they want and they just have to advertise… so that’s why applying constantly will help you get a good response somewhere.
Also, besides answering replies for jobs.. rework your resume, do a nice intro letter talking about you with details (but not too personal), and just go through the phonebook and pick out companies you might want to work for. And send out a copy of the resume and the letter (make sure you address each letter individually to the person/business you send it to).
Some of this I’m sure you already know or have been told, but I know a few people that do hiring and a lot of time it’s very arbitrary and you just have to keep submitting.
goooo crystal!!