September 11th
Last year at this time, I took down my site in rememberance for September 11th, as did several other people. I thought about doing it this year, but it just didn’t seem right. I’ve noticed a lot of other people have put up rememberance posts for the victims of September 11th, some of them very well written.
I’m really not sure what I want to do..
Perhaps it’s just that my wounds from that day are healing, though I know the wounds for some people never will. They have to carry that burden with them the rest of their lives.
Is this wrong of me? I’d never attempt to downplay the events of 9/11, of course not. It’s as tragic as the very first hour. But it appears that as time has gone by, I’ve become less succomb to the emotions concerning 9/11. In a way, I feel guilty. In other ways, I feel angry, angry that it had to come to that in the first place. Angry at our government, angry with our president for just making things worse out of revenge.
If anyone knows the lustful feeling of revenge, it’s me. I’m a very vengeful person. But I think 9/11 was one of the only times I didn’t feel vengeful. I felt remorse. It made me stop and think “Wow…what caused this..? What is it that I don’t know about..?” It seemed kinda silly to me to think that I had all the answers and reasonings behind 9/11.
Perhaps I have a skewed way of thinking. I wish that the event never happened. Waking up that day and turning on the news was probably one of the most numbing feelings in my whole life. It was like something out of the god damn twilight zone.
Who would have thought that the human race would want to destroy its own kind. Maybe that’s why we’re so resilient.
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7 Responses to “September 11th”
September 11th, 2003 at 2:30 pm
I think that’s maybe one of the most mature statements that I’ve heard about September 11th. Honestly, I think a lot of people just write these so-called sympathetic words because they long for something to latch onto or believe in. They don’t think about what it did to other people or what kind of effect this had in history in our lives in everything. It’s all about another excuse to wear red, white, and blue and have a cause. We’re like modern day hippies. I find it tragic that we are more patriotic on a day that thousands of American lives were stricken from this world than on the day when we gained our right to call ourselves America the country. It’s disturbing to me. I guess two things bother me about 9/11. Like you, it makes me think what the fuck is wrong with us? What did we do to provoke this? What are we as human beings doing? Are we really as elite a species as we think we are if we spend our days plotting the demise of other members of our species? We have less respect for one another than many animals. What, how, and why could we do this? It’s ruthless and heartless and cold. And secondly, of course, why do we dance around in red, white, and blue today like it’s a fucking ’cause for celebration? Do you know they officially made this a holiday? Today, is legally Patriot Day.
What is the world coming to?
September 11th, 2003 at 2:31 pm
September 11th, 2003 at 10:43 pm
Well for sure the day touched many of us in many ways.. some the events were the past in a few days, some in a few months, a few years.. then for some things will never get back to normal. The one good thing that can be said about the whole thing though is at least for a moment, at least for a day we were all on one side again and not bashing this person or bashing that person. I don’t blame you for not feeling that motivated this year.. you’ve somewhat come to peace with it by now.. I would consider myself somewhere in the middle.. Don’t know if I’ll ever be over it because it was the day I realized my best friend would be going off to war. Everybody has their own way of dealing with things, that’s the great thing about being human.
September 11th, 2003 at 11:55 pm
there’s nothing wrong with not shutting down your website for a day. the only time i ever shut down was on that day in 2001.
anyway, i’m angry too. i’m angry at the government for putting this country through two wars. i’m angry at this egregious sense of nationalism that’s disguised as patriotism that’s surged in the last two years (the kind where you can’t criticize the president or the government, or you’re deemed “unamerican”…total bullshit). i’m angry at the government for exploiting those events for their own agenda. i’m angry at the mainstream news media for virtually reminding us of what happened every damn day since then (like last year, i’m on a self-imposed news media blackout). i’m angry that people forget the original september 11 (1973) now. this year is also the thirtieth anniversary of the overthrowing of chilean president salvador allende in exchange for augusto pinochet, which the US was partially responsible for (those who staged the coup were trained in the US, by the US), which led to the deaths of 3000 chilean citizens (i read last night that some of them were to participate in a re-enactment of those events today). i’m angry that no one seems to want to let us move on with our lives; and THAT is, IMO, what those who died on/after both september 11’s would’ve wanted us to do.
yeah. i definitely hear ya.
September 12th, 2003 at 12:47 am
Was I this long absent?
Nice layout.
Gosh… 9 11… What horrible day it was. I seem to let it pass by … how sad.
September 12th, 2003 at 8:23 am
What gets my goat is patriots hanging flags off their cars or bridge overpasses until they are tattered and dirty. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I thought you’re supposed to bring the flag in when it rains - what’s up with hanging over a highway until it’s nothing but a rag? Drives me crazy.
Anyway, do not feel bad for not taking down your site. I think that your words were a perfect memorial. It’s good to see that people are actually thinking about 9-11 and all it entails, instead of thoughtless memorials.
September 12th, 2003 at 3:42 pm
Wow, such wonderful and conflicting comments. Nice job.