So I just now got a call from Phil, saying that he wants to throw a surprise party TOMORROW NIGHT for Coryn, like around 10pm. Not only am I camping, but tomorrow night is the Samhain Rite and some massive drumming into the wee hours of the morning.

urgh…….I’m not sure what to do….

Anyway, lots to do before I leave for the weekend.

Just getting a few last things packed up for my Samhain camping trip this weekend. Though technically I won’t be spending the night because the last two times I went camping, I never got any sleep. I just don’t have the money to buy proper equipment. And they don’t have a stream I can wash in so I have to go home to shower otherwise I feel dirty and miserable.

However, if I ever -do- get money, I’m going to get one of those big canvas army tents with the cast iron stove and buy a portable shower. Then I may never want to come home lol. Sati and I were giggling about getting a portable hot tub yesterday when we were setting up our tents. I think someone forgot their tent from the last campout during labor day, it was soaked with huge puddles and rust, blech.

I had to fight with Vernon to get Sister this wekeend. He knew I wanted her this weekend for months, and he plans some Girlscout thing on Saturday night. So originally I told him fine, I won’t take her at all this weekend, but she apparentlyt old him he wanted to go, and even though I heard him have a fit in the background over the phone, he’s going to let her. It’s not like I get her all the time or anything, so what’s the big deal? I like taking my sister to the High Rites, and she loves going.

No word back yet about the job, but Virginia said it wasn’t opening immediately, most likely in a week or two. But I’m still hopeful. I’ve already started planning out how I want to pay off the bills and give my dad a good Yule.

But yeah, cold camping this weekend.

Tomorrow Virginia will be giving my resume to her boss. I’m very nervous. I’d love to have this job, even if just for temporary. I’d be making so much money (theoretically) and can finally pay off some bills. I may e-mail her in a little bit just as a friendly reminder.

I have some fanlistings I need to complete, but I have no energy to complete them. I’d like to get the ones I have on upcoming up, and not worry about anymore, because they’re starting to become a hassle. What’s worse, is the more you join, the more moved forms you get from owners who decide to move them, and that’s even more annoying. I need to update my categories first and foremost though.

Was able to play a few games of checkers with my dad tonight. It’s nice being able to do things with him, since we don’t really do much together anymore. He’s one of the reasons I want to get into shape, because he’s getting older and stuff, and I should be helping out more. Chopping wood, feeding the animals, gathering the eggs, etc.

I also gave him some money to buy some yankee candles today, because there’s nothing like a nice rich yankee candle during the winter holidays. Apple Cinnamon, Pumpkin Pie, Autumn Lodge (some new scent), and my favorite, French Vanilla. That mixed in with the smell of burning wood from our woodstove is enough to burn away all my stress by just curling up in my flannels with a hot cup of cocoa.

I’ve been writing a lot lately for my Mud. I may eventually post some of the stories here. Right now I have to work on a story for this elven village called Seramythia, which was once a great kingdom known as Aowren. But during the Age of Strife, was destroyed in a great battle.

Going to carve some pumpkins tomorrow. Maybe I’ll do a little research on jack-o-lanterns for Pagan@OSN. I’ve been slacking there too. I do have a 9 page article on Lavender I need to edit over, a lot of it is full of some wonderful recipes I found.

I’m anxious for the Samhain campout this weekend. I’m not anxious to be cold, but I’m anxious to spend time with my friends and be lost in the moment of the holidays. I’m even MORE anxious for Sati to finish my cloak. She’s worked so hard on it, I need to do something special for her. Especially since I can’t sew

I need to make a schedule for myself.

Went out to the coffee house last night, had a decent time overall. Bought a new celtic cloak pin for when Sati is able to finish my cloak. Then hopefully we can start on my other one lol. Poor Sati. I realized on Wednesday when we went to lay out the fabric that I am no seamstress. I can gut and skin a deer, I can cook, and I can build, but I feel very incompetent when it comes to sewing.

I’m a little annoyed though. I used to go to the coffee house all the time and got a long with the owner up until that incident where he pretty much banished all pagans from the store in order to save his business. Yet he’s pagan. He used to give me discounts, and we’d all hang out at his house, or enjoy the hottub.

But last night it’s like I was a complete stranger. No hello, no nothing. He was probably too anxious to participate in some orgy next door. Fine fine. I don’t think I’d want to be friends with shallow people anyway.

I do miss going up there though, I love shopping there, I love the food, and I love some of the employees. So I may go more often.

I’ve been feeling very out of shape lately. I need to get up the motivation to do some sort of exercise everyday, but it’s rather difficult.

I sent my resume to my friend Virginia today. She works for Lockeed Martin and she says I have a decent chance at a temp job there. One can only hope.

I’m feeling very blah today. I hope this campout next weekend for Samhain proves to be very cleansing.

People in general are getting on my last god damn nerve today.

1. That friend of Ex #4s that supposidly got caught downloading music and fined $2k per song?

His friend lied. He never got caught.

2. Ex #4 has been pissing me off with numerous innane things.

3. I am the type of person that will voice their opinion about stuff they feel really strongly about. People bash tfl.org, I’m going to defend it. Well now one of the staffers is apparently “fucking ashamed of the staff” that we would dare not turn our other cheek, even though we aren’t fucking paid to sit there and take shit from anyone. Well excuse the fuck out of me for defending something I care deeply about. But I’m not going to sit there and let someone call us nazi bastards. Sorry.

4. I was asked to help do the new Druids Grove website. Sure, finally SOMETHING I can contribute to the Grove since I can’t really donate money. Already I’m made to feel guilty because the completely USELESS pages from before were taken down, and a temporary page was put up.

You know, if people can’t be fucking grateful, then fuck it, I quit.