My Dream
My ass should have been in bed 3 hours ago, cause I gotta get up in 4 hours. But I got caught up in watching “Crib” on MTV. For those of you that don’t know it’s a show about celebrity homes, just gives you a nice little tour and lets you see how they want to show off their money.
I can’t express how much just watching 3 hours of this stupid show has motivated my poor broke ass to get my music career on the road. I sit here in my spider filled house with the bathroom floor rotting (you can actually see the basement) and a drop ceiling missing ceiling tiles. Then I see all of these celebrities with millions of dollars invested into these mansions, and I just want to cry.
I seriously just want to cry.
I could do this shit, I don’t even want some big fancy house, granted I want a nice house, but I’m not gonna be having 10,000 pairs of shoes, I’m going to be using my money for something useful. Saving the environment or something like that.
I’ve stayed in fancy hotel rooms before, mostly just by chance. One time I got stranged in Green Bay when I was on my way to Detroit and I was put up in this really nice hotel with room service. And I don’t know what it is. It’s like you sit there in this beautiful room, looking out at the world, like you have some class, like you’re actually important, or somebody.
The worst part is I’m doubting myself. I’m doubting my potential and my talent. I can’t read music, I don’t understand music theory, but I can sing, and I can play some guitar, and I’m sure I could learn scales if I actually sat down to do it.
Give me the strength to make my dream.
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5 Responses to “My Dream”
October 5th, 2003 at 11:06 am
Try not to beat yourself up about it. The majority of mainstream musicians who do have millions of dollars and 10,000 pairs of shoes don’t deserve it and have about as much talent as a dead ant. I’m sure you could put them to shame any day.
October 5th, 2003 at 4:38 pm
“Attempt the end, and never stand to doubt; nothing’s so hard, but search will find it out.”
Be strong in your belief that music is your path, and live with no regrets. Don’t let self-doubt derail your dreams. :o)
October 5th, 2003 at 5:59 pm
I don’t think all of that extra stuff matters, as long as you enjoy what you’re doing. And now adays, how many people can say they actually enjoy their jobs?
I mean, I know I’m not the best photographer, but I have never studied arts or photography, but I love doing it, and it makes me happy, and it’s my dream to persue it as my lifetime job.
Anyways, good luck
xx
October 6th, 2003 at 3:02 pm
Don’t feel bad about yourself! Just because someone has a lot of money does NOT mean he or she has class (just look at my boss, ugh).
If you work hard, you will succeed. Maybe that is being rich and famous. Maybe modestly known and happy. Who knows? You’ll know when you get what you want and no one else can tell you. Good luck!
October 13th, 2003 at 8:21 pm
Yeah, the funny thing is..half of the people I see on cribs I have never even heard of! LOL. My mom is a teacher and my dad is a construction worker. My dad works in the heat all day (we live in the desert), and he builds these big houses for these dumb asses who get paid 439845 times more than him doing NOTHING. GRRRR. Don’t worry, I hate them too. =)