Happy…….happy birthday
This birthday was probably the best birthday I’ve ever had. I don’t think birthdays were really a big thing in my family. The last two, were absolutely horrible. I was left alone crying myself to sleep the majority of the night. Ironically for the same reason for each birthday.
But not this year..
I didn’t get any glamorous presents, I didn’t get some huge party, or thousands of gifts. What I got was a lot of caring and loving people making sure I knew how special I was. Treated to dinner, then a Kill Bill night with friends. Given roses, a card and some small things. Just the warmth and closeness I felt with my friends tonight was all I could really ask for or want.
I sat and thought of the few times when I was in a very dark period in my life, when I was unemployed and felt like I couldn’t take care of my father, when Jeff was cheating on me, when I became aware that I’ll never make something of my life. And it was during those times I would close inside myself and just wish I didn’t even exist. I wish someone would take all of that pain away.
So I thought about those times tonight, and wondered what in the hell I was thinking. How could I ever consider doing away with all of the wonderful people in my life.
Mushy yes, but, it made me happy.
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One Response to “Happy…….happy birthday”
April 14th, 2004 at 3:22 pm
I’m glad you had a good birthday this year. Isn’t it amazing how sometimes the best birthdays are the ones that aren’t extravaggant? With all the materialism and stuff in this country, you’d think that it wouldn’t be that way.