Losing our home?
Kinda depressed. Okay, not kinda, a lot.
I’ve been trying to straighten out my finances. I actually purchased my credit report so I could figure some things out. It’s considered “very poor.” Not as bad as I thought it was, but it’s still bad enough to cause worry. (Though “Ex #1″ has a rather big debt that I’m going to reem him out about tomorrow).
I’ve been thinking about our house lately. We don’t own it, we rent. From a 90 year old farmer who doesn’t want to give up the property for some reason. He doesn’t do any maintenance, he doesn’t do anything, it’s like he doesn’t even exist.
Should he pass away soon, the property will most likely be left to his kids. And who knows what they’ll want to do with it. There’s no way anyone else would rent it, the house is condemable. The property however, is probably very valuable. So they may want to try to sell it out to some contractor or something, which would leave us homeless.
I don’t know anything about loans and banks and finances, honestly. But I’d like to somehow get a loan to buy this place or something. I’m not quite sure how to go about it. Who do I talk to?
I’ve lived in this house off and on since I was born. We lived here when I was born, moved into another house for a few years, but moved back when my parents were divorced. And even though I lived in Virginia with my ex-husband, my father still lived here. And my father needs a place where he can relax and have his animals. I don’t think he could cope with living in an apartment somewhere with nothing to do. No flowers to plant, no animals to tend to.
So what do I do? I’m 24 god damn years old and I feel as helpless as newborn.
My fingers are bleeding from playing guitar so much. Just trying to block out some of the depression through music.
I need to do something.
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