Looking for another Job. The Drama
Today has been probably one of the worst days I’ve ever had.
Today:
An employee at work found my journal. You can just imagine the can of worms that opens up. Apparently they not only called the lawyer that takes care of all of the Vet’s legal standings, but everyone else in the hospital as well.
I’ve pretty much pissed off every single person, except a select few, at work. And not just pissed off, but PISSED OFF people. All with good reason. You don’t think when you have an online journal to vent about things in your life, that eventually it may -affect- your life. But now it has.
Thank you to the office manager for letting me cry in his office for about an hour today. I don’t really know what I would have done otherwise.
I’ve had this journal since September of 2001. I lost my very very old entries due to having to hide my site from people who were harassing me before. But 3 years worth of journaling has never come down to this.
I haven’t lost my job. I still have it if I want it. Question is, how do you work in an environment where the majority of the people hate you, and most of all, your best friend? It’s just not possible. So I have a week to basically find another job, if not, well, my dad and I are pretty much out in the streets.
I’m sure I’ll find a way to get by, I always have. It’s not going to be pretty.
I never meant to hurt you Coryn, or anyone else for that matter. I’ve said in previous entries like -this- one that I’d trust you with my life, and I would. You’ve ever right to be as mad as you are, even more so. I only hope one day you can forgive me because I don’t want to lose you as a friend.
To anyone else, again I am sorry. I don’t intentionally try to hurt people, but I’ve made a mistake in this case, and ended up hurting people anyway.
I’ve removed all the entries that I could find that involved work and employee’s. I’m not removing my journal, because it is my journal, and I like having one to write thoughts and feelings in. I just need to be careful as to what I write about.
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5 Responses to “Looking for another Job. The Drama”
June 19th, 2004 at 8:29 am
fuck em all
you haven’t done anything wrong, nor anything malicious
they have no reason to be pissed off. if they are upset about something you said, then they should take a minute to think about why — is what you said too close to home?
I’ve never been upset about anything you wrote about me.. hmm, maybe because I treat you right and act right
people only hurt those who threaten themselves — you are obviously better than them.
I’m sure they have had bad things to say about you behind your back, or especially to themselves. you have the courage to share your thoughts with others and get input, which in turn betters yourself and may help resolve issues. there are many positives about a site like this.
they need to CHILL and realize you are a good person and a good friend.
<3
June 19th, 2004 at 3:10 pm
?My website. My opinions. My journal. My feelings. My life. No apologies, no excuses, ever.? - Dreamscapes
This is a mentality that I hold in regards to my journal. I think it has excellent application to your situation. Just because a journal is online, doesn’t make it any less of one. If you had left a traditional style journal out on your desk.. would these people have still read it?
Regardless though, I don’t think that you should let their anger run you out of a job. Sure, it’ll be tough for a while.. but you’re a tough gal and I know you can stick it out. I can’t imagine letting such a trivial matter (obviously blown well out of proportion) possibly lead to you and your family to the streets.
It?s apparent that you may have struck a nerve.. a sensitive area with many people. Most don?t see beyond their own perspectives, and you?ve just given them a new one. I guess they just don?t like their reflection mirrored through you. I?m sorry you felt the need to ?rip out pages? of your journal, but in all honesty you are not the one at fault here. Don?t beat yourself up because of them.
~hug~ Much love, and keep your head up. =)
June 19th, 2004 at 3:55 pm
It still doesn’t make it any easier that I’ve hurt people I care about.
June 19th, 2004 at 4:02 pm
..do you think it’s occurred to them that they hurt you, which is part of the reason those entries came to life?
June 19th, 2004 at 4:08 pm
Very little of the entries were about me being hurt about anything. It was more of me getting annoyed and letting it out somewhere.