It’s been a pretty rough week. A lot of emotional downs that I am trying to recover from.

A spring ritual on Saturday at the Grove, it was very lovely. We had a professional photographer there taking photos for a book he is doing called “Those seeking the spiritual.” I’ll be glad to start nursing my spiritual side again, as it appears I’ve lost sight of a lot of things that were important to me.

Sunday my sister came over for a while. She confiscated several items of fairie statuettes and sailor moon memorabilia that I was throwing out. I was also able to take a picture of her dressed up somewhat amazon-esque. I also uploaded piece of a video from when she was a year old (I would be 15), which is quite adorable.

Michael and I are going through some ups and downs. It worries me to a point, but the more I resist any changes to our relationship, the more complicated things are going to be. So I am trying to be loyal and patient. I do love him dearly, and am willing to work hard for him.

I’m attempting to watch my food intake, as well as start up some regular hiking. I actually want to create a small altar in the woods during one of my hikes, and use it for meditational purposes. I’ll try to take some pictures as available.

Work is going well, I expected it to be a lot worse for the spring season, but it’s still early yet.

Some good things about today: My boss telling me I smelled really good. Michael telling me he loves me. Myk being there for me through thick and thin. Kiim and Ron always being supportive of me at work. My boss encouraging me to get my mustang.

I was going to go to the Grove today, but I didn’t in order to do some things around the house. Big mistake, because I got myself involved in a terrible ordeal that I couldn’t back out of.

In the midst of this terrible ordeal, I told my dad to take a walk with me and My Son. So we hiked a good 2 miles or so through the woods. He showed me where an old graveyard (that’s apparently still in use) was, and we looked at some tracks. He showed me the difference between buck and doe tracks. And I had time to sit next to the graveyard and contemplate a lot of things.

I thought about who I was, and what I’m doing in this place. Why I hadn’t come out here sooner, what I want out of my life and my spirituality.

I think the power of all things kicked my ass today as a lesson. You can’t give your spiritual side a “break” and you most certainly can’t ignore it. It’s a part of my inner self. And I didn’t realize it until I took the time to reconnect with that after all that I’ve dealt with today. It was a humble lesson. But well learned.

I wish you were more patient with me. I have a lot to figure out, a lot to work through. I just need time.

Nothing like Alice in Chains unplugged to make the work day that much better. They were such a kickass band, feels like forever ago that I used to listen to them and Soundgarden religiously. I was such a grundge girl.

Feeling pretty good. Been exercising regularly, going to start taking My Son for hikes as soon as this snow gives up. My bank account is in the 4 digits and growing, though it still disturbs me when I have to pay a bill. But right now I feel secure financially for once. Using my Microsoft Money program since February has really turned my financial situation around. I guess because I never paid attention to my account before.

Was invited out to lunch this weekend, and possibly dinner Friday, though with the snow in the forcast I don’t think that’ll go over well.

And I have Michael. Life is pretty good.

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I don’t know what’s going on, but I’m experiencing some sort of half-blindness. It just hit all of a sudden an I can’t hardly read or see. Maybe I need to rest my eyes.

Just watched Napoleon Dynamite which Michael sent me. Hilarious. Now I want the soundtrack. And his suit was hella sexy.

Have I mentioned I love nerds? Gosh…..

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