Can’t Sleep
I’ve been up since 4am, because I just can’t sleep. Too much on my mind to allow it to quiet. No weird dreams for me tonight I suppose. It’s been kind of a stressful month. Perhaps it’s starting to get to me. I can feel my brain trying to sift through all the things I’ve been dealing with, not sure how to fix them all. Overall I’m not bad off, so I’m not sure why it’s taking such a toll on me. I really wish people would stop adding more stress onto me.
I’m taking next week off of work. No particular reason, I’m not going anywhere. I thought about taking my father to Cunningham Falls or Swallow Falls, though neither of us has a vehicle that can really make either trip. The things that my mustang would come in handy for….
So I will relax, I will work feverishly on my MUD. I will spend time outside, I will read, I will clean, I will watch the new movies I purchased for myself. It will be a good week. Best of all, I will get paid for it. Some people have asked me to come visit, but I will most likely say no to all of them. I don’t want to visit anyone, and I don’t want anyone to visit. I just want time to myself. So do not ask me.
I miss the Grove. I haven’t been there since Midsummer due to lack of a decent vehicle. I will be going to the Lughnasadh ritual next weekend, but I may have to borrow a car even for that. Those people are my family, it’s a spiritual sanctuary. I miss them something awful, and I was browsing through old photographs of good times I’ve had there, and it brings back so many wonderful memories.
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