Credit is the bane of my existance
I almost cried quite a few times today. Even now that I’m home, I don’t allow myself to. I’m so unbelievably frustrated with the car situation. And it’s such a small thing, I don’t know why I allow it to get to me so much. I think it goes beyond the issue with having a crappy vehicle and needing a new one.
I got turned down again for the 12k focus. 12 fucking k, and I can’t get financed. Why? “Insufficient Credit History.” Jesus christ. It’s not like I have BAD credit or anything. I don’t even know what to do at this point. Each time I’m turned down it almost feels like people telling me I’m not good enough. I’m low-class, or some other stupid shit that is just me overreacting because I’m so fucking pissed off.
I told my dad when I got home, he was livid. He’s going to go talk to the crazy rich uncle again, not that I think it will do any good.
I pay $70/week on gas, which is more than I would pay for a car payment ($200/month). I’d be SAVING money by buying a new car.
Whatever.
Had fun at the barbeque on Saturday, saw all my old highschool friends, played whiffle ball and bocce. It started to rain, but we kept on, so we were all soaked by dark time. I might try to post up some pictures later, but I doubt they’d be interesting to anyone but me. So weird to see us all growing up like we have. Everyone is getting married, getting houses, getting good jobs. And look at me, staying at home with dad to take care of him, and can’t even buy a new car, and I’m divorcing. Ah, life….
It’s just going to take me a little more time, that’s all. I’ll figure it out.
Labor day this weekend, haven’t really decided what I’m going to do. I have my sister for the weekend, so I may go up to Highland Farms for a burning man wannabe drumming thing. Really all I want to do is sleep.
Deirdre, I’m sorry I haven’t been able to make it to the Grove as much. I just can’t afford it at all. I put $40 in my bronco today and barely got over half a tank of gas.
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