Beltain at CedarLight and some reflections
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We did our Beltane ritual at the Grove yesterday, to which I took my sister though she didn’t participate. It was actually an entertaining ritual, as most rituals these days seem too uniform and repetative. I enjoy changes and new things every so often.
This year we honored Belenus and Epona, though I realize I now forget who the gatekeeper was. I also realize I know very little about Gaulish deities.
We had two old members who own a horse farm, come down after being absent for at least a year. With them they brought many equine statuaries, high-octane horses milk from a horse that recently gave birth, as well as horseshoes to pass out among the attendees. These same two members will also be attending the Beltane ritual at Highland Farms next week, who I believe is also honoring Epona, and they will be bringing two of their horses up to ride around the ritual space during the invocation. I expect this will be a very powerful ritual.
Overall we had 30 signed attendees, and several new faces mixed with the old. I took some pictures and very few videos of the ritual.
I did not bring my guitar or drum, because I was actually not feeling “in” the holiday spirit yesterday. I felt better once I got to the Grove, but I’ve just been having some spiritual issues as of late. I have the desire to increase my musical archive as well as work on my dedicants program and finish up everything I need to put on the Grove website, but the will isn’t there. Perhaps I am overwhelmed with unfinished projects that it’s preventing me the motivation to finish any of them. A strong Aries flaw, so I’m told, is the ability to lead and start many projects, but the inability to finish them. It’s very frustrating.
I also notice that, though I love my sister very much, more and more I feel a very strong disconnect with her. We’ve suffered the same, yet we’ve grown up so different. And I don’t see her enough to involve her in some of the things in my life. So when she comes over, she listens to her hip hop music and she has manicures and talks about normal pre-teen things I guess.
I suppose a lot of blame can be put on me being so busy. Today I am going to see if she’ll want to go on a hike with me, play in some dirt, etc. Though a neighbor recently reported a very large bobcat in one of her fields down the road. And though I know there is one roaming our woods, I don’t know if it’s -that- big. I may take the .22 with me anyway. I’m wondering if that isn’t what has been terrorizing our fowl, but it just doesn’t seem like a bobcat thing to do.
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