All things love
I have the gmail notifier installed on my taskbar. I don’t ever use my gmail, but I jumped on the bandwagon when it came out so I at least had one. Today there happened to be a message popup, a spam email that happened to get past the spam filter. So for the first time in I don’t know how long, I opened up my gmail to delete it. While I was going through things in the gmail account, there was a list of past emails I had been sent over a year ago, some of them from Michael.
I noticed when my mouse hovered over these emails, that each gmail account lets you choose an avatar now, and when I had hovered over Michael’s name, there was an avatar of him, and his ex-girlfriend Anna, from Russia. The one he had a fling with while with me, and vice versa, so he could “figure out his feelings.” The only problem was, she was in a wedding dress, and he was in a suit.
My only conclusion was that they had gotten married. After all the drama last spring, where he cut all ties with her to be with me, where she had threatened him, abused him, drove him off, he went and married her because I wouldn’t move away from everything I know to be with him. He had gotten a job as a court reporter in Dodge City, Kansas, and wanted me to go with, but I was not ready to leave my father behind, quit my first decent paying job, to go be with someone I hadn’t even established a serious relationship with.
So he dumped me, through email of course, and only after he wouldn’t talk to me or answer my phone calls for about 3 months.
It hurt, but it didn’t take long to get over. I knew things wouldn’t have worked out anyway, and at that time I had gotten absorbed in CoM, so that took up a lot of my time (thankfully), and probably saved me a lot of brooding.
It shouldn’t bother me now, and I guess it really doesn’t. The guy I’m involved with now has had plenty of time to pull the types of things I have dealt with in the past with my relationships, but he has been nothing but perfect. But perhaps I still feel betrayed by Michael. He never gave me any reason for the break-up, even to this day.
I just don’t know what to think.
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