Depression, Work, and Javascript
It was a rough day.
I couldn’t get the issue of my sister out of my head, obviously. But I was also met with a generic email to the office about issues with people neglecting company policy, leaving too early, visiting too many personal websites, etc. And, already being in the emotional stupor that I was, I just took every last letter to heart.
So of course, I cried again. I think it was mainly left over from last night, but it happened anyway. I felt like shit the entire day, I felt like I was at risk of losing my job, I felt like I was never going to be able to talk to my sister again, I felt like I was too stupid to even be working at this company.
I really wish I understood depression. I’m not normally a depressed person. I laugh a lot, the past year has been absolutely fantastic, I’ve been accomplishing my goals and saving money and making plans. But goddamn if there aren’t just times where I I’m completely miserable.
I really shouldn’t have taken the work email to heart. I did bust my ass today, which made me feel good. But I can’t help but feel insecure about whether I’m considered an asset or not. I really want to learn programming so I can help out in numerous areas rather than just the HTML/CSS portion.
Javascript will probably be my first choice, and php. If anyone has any good starter sites or tutorials, I could sure use them.
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