Conflicting thoughts on my mother
I’m….conflicted.
I spoke before about how my mom was trying to get me to go out to dinner with her. Originally I thought the idea was obsurd, and just intended to make excuses not to go. But now I’m considering entertaining the idea.
Not because I want to repair the relationship with my mother, not because I’ve suddenly forgiven her for 20 years of abuse and hatred. But because she has a lot of geneology information that I’d like to have.
That sounds so shallow, doesn’t it.
At the same time, I don’t want to lead her on into thinking we’re -going- to repair our relationship or anything. Something like that would take years and years worth of effort on her part, and I don’t see that happening.
So a cordial dinner with my biological mother, at the request of my sister. I guess I can handle that.
I’ve not been in the presence of the woman for more than 10 minutes for many many years. At the very least, I’ll get a free dinner at my favorite restaurant.
In other news, I’ve tasted soy milk for the first time today. It almost hints to liquid corn. It’s not bad, and edible in cereal. Definitely not drinkable, and definitely not something I’ll buy again.
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One Response to “Conflicting thoughts on my mother”
March 22nd, 2007 at 4:51 pm
Eww.. liquid corn! That sounds so gross!