No updates on the homefront
No new updates on the home front. The funeral is tomorrow, and my father has been asked to be one of the casket carriers. To me that shows good favor on his part.
He did stop up and speak with one of the nephews today, who said that our landlord did have plans in mind for what he wanted to do with the three properties he owned (ours and the two other farms), but didn’t know what they were, or if they were actually put onto paper.
This could go many different ways, but I’m hoping that our landlord, considering how much he adored my father, would have kept that in mind when making a decision about what to do with this small piece of property, compared to his other two huge farms.
All this waiting is going to stress me out pretty bad I think, but I’ve resolved to stay focused and prepare for whatever outcome. I actually cried myself to sleep last night thinking about it, mainly because my father was talking about moving in with his brother and selling all of the animals. And I can’t imagine being separated from my father again with his health like it is. I don’t think I could forgive myself if something happened to him and I wasn’t there.
A co-worker commented today that I was exceptionally giddy today. I was giggling a lot at work, but what the hell else am I going to do? I almost stayed home, but I know if I did I would just brood on everything, and I needed to get out.
So in light of that, I’ve decided if we are given the option to buy, that I will indeed see what I can do about purchasing my first house. I wanted to wait till the mustang was paid off, but I’ll do what I gotta do. I’ve fought too hard to have my life fucked up now on some technicality.
So I’ve been going through my finances again with a fine-toothed comb, figuring out exactly how much I can afford. My father has a friend who buys properties and such, so I will be talking with her and see if I can work with her on financing a mortgage for this place. I’m going to need my dads help in this, so he’s going to have to listen to me when I go through his finances as well.
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