Having another rough day
Today was a rough one.
My father works hard to load up the trailer while I’m at work. I work as much as I can when I get home, but I don’t want him straining himself.
I spoke with a realtor today that was recommended to me, and is also a lawyer, and he said his gut feeling is that we won’t find the type of property we are looking for in Maryland, at least not at the price we can afford. He strongly suggests we look in PA (which we are doing anyway) and that we might be able to find what we want up there.
I spoke with a broker that he recommended later on, who said the same thing.
The realtor also said the property I have scheduled to look at on Saturday, we won’t be able to buy with an FHA loan because it needs a lot of work. He also said the owners want $5,000 up front, I believe separate from the down payment. I can’t afford that. But he said to keep thinking positive, because PA should be a lot easier to find what we want.
It’s very disheartening because you can’t help but feel like you’re just not good enough to own a home like most people. I don’t have a good enough job, I don’t make enough money, I didn’t go to college therefor I’m always going to be on the bottom rung of the ladder. My father deserves better than that, and I can’t seem to give it to him.
Some neighbors stopped by later and said that they should get the neighbors together to raise money to help out. They’d be the second set of people to say that, but I imagine it’s just all talk like everyone else. All good intentions. It’s good that they love my father so much, but no one is stepping up to help him out except for me, and I’m so tired of everyone just having good intentions.
So I feel pretty low today.
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2 Responses to “Having another rough day”
July 7th, 2008 at 11:23 pm
I know how hard all of this must be for you, but try to stay positive and perhaps this could be an opportunity waiting or a new path opening up for you. I truly hope you find something you really love and that will be yours.
July 8th, 2008 at 6:13 am
I am trying, hopefully it will all pan out in the end.